Nov.17/2009

I find it odd that I, a Baptist, am volunteering for a Catholic church, and my husband, a Catholic, is volunteering for a Baptist church.  My hubby is assistant coaching a basketball team for a Baptist school. And I am tutoring a child their CYO class every week.  I am not allowed to teach anything that is "Catholic only."  I just teach them their weekly Bible lesson and help them learn more about God.  It is similar to discipleship.  It's a pretty awesome volunteer job.

Married life is good! 

I learned that Chili is jealous of the lap top. 

We're going to have to deep clean the carpet in our house.  I have had a sinus infection since mid-July and the Dr.s I've seen have misdiagnosed it 3 times as bacterial ( giving me anti-biotics), when it is actually allergenic.  I hope my immune system is ok.  I had to get an allergy test done yesterday and am scheduled for a CAT scan on Thursday to see if there is anything anatomically wrong with my nose.  Some people keep trying to blame my allergies on Chili, but I don't think she is the cause.  Here is my best explanation:  We adopted Chili in March.  My allergies didn't start till mid-July (pollenation).  I experienced the same thing aroung July-August of 2008.  I have symptoms everywhere I go, not just at home.  And I have had many house dogs throughout my life and never had allergy symptoms because of them.  I guess we will have to see.  I don't want to lose my dog.  She has been a good pet.  And I love her more than pickles and cottage cheese.  And if you know me.. you would know that that is a lot of love.

Lilah thinks I'm crazy because I think Zack Brown is sexy.   What? I can think someone is sexy!

http://zacbrownband.com/media/photo.php#

My attempt at being a poet! It's probably the cheesiest poem ever:)

I want to ride a ship on the seas,

bounce on the moon,

eat sushi in Japan,

and float away in an air balloon.

I want to sing like a rockstar,

and dance the night away,

show kindness to everyone,

no matter their want to repay.

I want to have a tea party in Boston,

and eat cheese in Wisconsin,

Take a nap under a shade tree,

and be held by the one who loves me.

I want to eat sausage in Poland,

pick flowers in Holland,

Capture the splendor of Italy,

and let go of all anxieties.

04/29/2009 Gotta process it out!

Let's see....  today me and Chili Bean took a bike ride (well, I road my bike and Chili ran along side) to Orschelans to have Eric air up my tires.  Road and ran back home.  Cleaned house for a while.  Went out to eat with my dad-in-law, grandpa-in-law, and bro-in-law, and came back home to finish up the cleaning of the house, which I don't mind doing, but it would be nice to have more of a reason for cleaning other than to prevent allergies from flaring up.  I wish I could figure out a way to get involved in this community and actually have people over for lunch or dinner or even brunch.... something.  I only get one Sunday off every month, so it is hard to get involved in church.  When I walk Chili I try to introduce myself to the neighbors, but they seem to care less.  My dad-in-law lives with us, but I only see him for a little while before one of us has to go into work.  Eric and I practically work opposite shifts.  When I go to work I am usually the only employee in the hotel, and have actually caught myself trying to make friends with the guests that stay for weeks, just so I can feel like I have a friend around.  I miss the olden days.  The days when there was something to do every morning, day, and night.  The days when I could call a friend and ask them if they wanted to go to the park, watch a movie, or meet me somewhere for lunch, and actually meet them within 10 minutes.  The days when I would come home and someone would actually be there to talk to and share my day with.  The days when I would come home and cool things were happening.  I don't feel like cool things are still happening.  I feel numb!  My life now consist of cleaning up after 2 men, myself, and a dog.  And when I go to work I clean up after tons of people and deal with their snarly comments about whatever they can find to complain about to see if they can get a few bucks knocked off their stay amount.  I'm just ranting because I've just had one of those days.  Sometimes, I just need to process stuff out and this is the best way I know how.  Feelings can throw everything off.  Everything can be going perfectly right, but if I'm just feeling down and out, I can find anything and everything to justify those feelings.  So, what's the conclusion.... I am thankful for what I have, I'm just having trouble letting go of the closeness I used to share with people.  I think everyone goes through this at some point in their life, whether it be letting go of a high school best friend who chooses a college states away, being sent over seas for months or years at a time, or receiving a job in a town hours away from the ones you love.  It's time for bed now.  Better send Eric to bed so I can have my bed (the couch.)  Hopefully the weather is better tomorrow.... I really want to go for a long bike-ride or even drive on over to Smithville lake and take a long hike with Chili Bean.  L8er!

04/25/2009