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| I find it odd that I, a Baptist, am volunteering for a Catholic church, and my husband, a Catholic, is volunteering for a Baptist church. My hubby is assistant coaching a basketball team for a Baptist school. And I am tutoring a child their CYO class every week. I am not allowed to teach anything that is "Catholic only." I just teach them their weekly Bible lesson and help them learn more about God. It is similar to discipleship. It's a pretty awesome volunteer job. Married life is good! I learned that Chili is jealous of the lap top. We're going to have to deep clean the carpet in our house. I have had a sinus infection since mid-July and the Dr.s I've seen have misdiagnosed it 3 times as bacterial ( giving me anti-biotics), when it is actually allergenic. I hope my immune system is ok. I had to get an allergy test done yesterday and am scheduled for a CAT scan on Thursday to see if there is anything anatomically wrong with my nose. Some people keep trying to blame my allergies on Chili, but I don't think she is the cause. Here is my best explanation: We adopted Chili in March. My allergies didn't start till mid-July (pollenation). I experienced the same thing aroung July-August of 2008. I have symptoms everywhere I go, not just at home. And I have had many house dogs throughout my life and never had allergy symptoms because of them. I guess we will have to see. I don't want to lose my dog. She has been a good pet. And I love her more than pickles and cottage cheese. And if you know me.. you would know that that is a lot of love. | | |
| Lilah thinks I'm crazy because I think Zack Brown is sexy. What? I can think someone is sexy! http://zacbrownband.com/media/photo.php# | | |
| I want to ride a ship on the seas, bounce on the moon, eat sushi in Japan, and float away in an air balloon. I want to sing like a rockstar, and dance the night away, show kindness to everyone, no matter their want to repay. I want to have a tea party in Boston, and eat cheese in Wisconsin, Take a nap under a shade tree, and be held by the one who loves me. I want to eat sausage in Poland, pick flowers in Holland, Capture the splendor of Italy, and let go of all anxieties. | | |
| Let's see.... today me and Chili Bean took a bike ride (well, I road my bike and Chili ran along side) to Orschelans to have Eric air up my tires. Road and ran back home. Cleaned house for a while. Went out to eat with my dad-in-law, grandpa-in-law, and bro-in-law, and came back home to finish up the cleaning of the house, which I don't mind doing, but it would be nice to have more of a reason for cleaning other than to prevent allergies from flaring up. I wish I could figure out a way to get involved in this community and actually have people over for lunch or dinner or even brunch.... something. I only get one Sunday off every month, so it is hard to get involved in church. When I walk Chili I try to introduce myself to the neighbors, but they seem to care less. My dad-in-law lives with us, but I only see him for a little while before one of us has to go into work. Eric and I practically work opposite shifts. When I go to work I am usually the only employee in the hotel, and have actually caught myself trying to make friends with the guests that stay for weeks, just so I can feel like I have a friend around. I miss the olden days. The days when there was something to do every morning, day, and night. The days when I could call a friend and ask them if they wanted to go to the park, watch a movie, or meet me somewhere for lunch, and actually meet them within 10 minutes. The days when I would come home and someone would actually be there to talk to and share my day with. The days when I would come home and cool things were happening. I don't feel like cool things are still happening. I feel numb! My life now consist of cleaning up after 2 men, myself, and a dog. And when I go to work I clean up after tons of people and deal with their snarly comments about whatever they can find to complain about to see if they can get a few bucks knocked off their stay amount. I'm just ranting because I've just had one of those days. Sometimes, I just need to process stuff out and this is the best way I know how. Feelings can throw everything off. Everything can be going perfectly right, but if I'm just feeling down and out, I can find anything and everything to justify those feelings. So, what's the conclusion.... I am thankful for what I have, I'm just having trouble letting go of the closeness I used to share with people. I think everyone goes through this at some point in their life, whether it be letting go of a high school best friend who chooses a college states away, being sent over seas for months or years at a time, or receiving a job in a town hours away from the ones you love. It's time for bed now. Better send Eric to bed so I can have my bed (the couch.) Hopefully the weather is better tomorrow.... I really want to go for a long bike-ride or even drive on over to Smithville lake and take a long hike with Chili Bean. L8er! | | |
| Today I was in a hurry to make it to the bank (don't know why I was in a hurry, just was), and about a quarter mile past my house a car pulls out in front of me. I hit my brakes, my dog went flying, and my cherry limeade spilt all over my front seat. Just as I was chewing her out and telling Chili she should bite her, the lady came to a stop, got out of the car, walked up to my car and asked if I was alright. She appologized for pulling out in front of me so quickly, and asked if Chili was alright as well. I told her we were fine and asked her not to worry as I was inwardly feeling guilty for chewing her out, etc., even though I'm pretty sure she didn't hear me. She went back to her car, and I took off again. As soon as I hit the accelerator, I hear on the radio, "be slow to anger and abounding in love" and a song started playing, the first words being "Everyone needs compassion, Love that's never failing, Let mercy fall on me, Everyone needs forgiveness." I thank God for His grace and mercy. Lesson learned, I obviously need to be more compassionate, loving, and forgiving. | | |
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